so i want that place. i do i do i do. so now, it's just a hope hope hope that they pick me!
something happened today. thoughts and feelings were set straight, and we're both on the same page today, and maybe i'll get to visit him april, and maybe i won't, but it'll depend on him now. and i know that's what's best and what works most fairly for both of us and it's what i expected would have to happen even awhile back, but didn't want to accept it.
but i'm still sad about it.