Wednesday, December 24, 2003

in germany for christmas. and because if i start sending personal emails to people i know i'll forget someone, so instead..


because here, christmas is on the eve. which means that in 34 minutes it's christmastime, except that i doubt i'll get online tomorrow, so i do it now.

i even have presents for everyone here. i feel so proud....

my last day in prague was lovely. sunshine and chilly, a few snowflakes here and there.. and then when i got to the plane it ended up being delayed after everyone was on board. so we sat there for nearly an hour. and when the plane started to move and i woke up and looked out the window, it was the middle of a snowstorm. i said from the beginning that i wouldn't leave prague until it started to snow....

so now i'm here. in glees, smalltown germany, for a few days, before a couple days in buchen near hamburg. and on the one hand, it's nice to be here, but on the other hand it can't go quickly enough. partially because i'm still very aware of how little german i understand (although it's a lot more now than it used to be) but also because i have no one around here to tell the stupid things that pop into my head. at least, no one who'll appreciate it. which is why being in sandefjord will be wonderful, because i'll be spending it with people who are a lot more fun and interesting (by my standards).

just have to hope that it actually snows for new years....

but at any rate. merry christmas, everybody. hope everyone had a good time this year. (still 27 minutes early. ah well.)

Congratulations! You're Legolas!

Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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that's not me, i don't think..

(okay, maybe a little, but not really.)

it does mean that i'm an elf, though, and therefore i'm happy with the result. {g}

i want to see the movie soon.... one more week. hopefully.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

MAGGIE CLEAN OUT YOUR EMAIL!!! how can we send you christmas greetings if your mailbox is full??

Monday, December 22, 2003

i leave prague tomorrow afternoon. and i'm terribly sad about it. sort of. kind of. but not really. because i know i'll be back. and i'm looking forward to seeing people in germany. and to seeing people and places in vancouver again. gonna be sleeping in germany tomorrow night, then. then one week there, then one week in norway, then back in canada the night of january 7th. rah?

the magazine website launch party was on friday. interesting things happened after i left, although everyone's in one piece at this point, so that's good. the last few months have had so many stories of extreme physical damage though, don't know why. especially this month. hopefully it's done with by now, though. throughout the night i was "The Sticker Girl". because one of the stickers that's being used for advertising, to be plastered about town, is a picture of me. s'actually quite nifty, i like it a lot. i'll link to the site eventually. when i'm sure that i want either page to be found (more this one by people noticing where it's linked from than vice versa). when i'm finished all the work that i need to do to be completely caught up. which involves finishing up another couple articles and laying them out, but i'll get to it. i'll have a few hours to kill at the airport.

it's been snowing this week. it's been lovely. although really warm again today. weather's so strange...

bartered with bulgarians in czech yesterday. spent a good lazy afternoon/evening in the cuban irish bar O'Che's the other day. played with a puppy that only understands greek all weekend. drank kofola. had a long late-night discussion about X-Files with one of the last people i'd expect to be a fan of the show. got paid for my work in december, something i didn't expect to receive before i left. met an italian who was at the boban markovic concert and gushed about music with him for awhile last night. discussed shishas with a moravian today. got business cards the other day. got christmas shopping finished. had the best chocolate ice cream in the world yesterday. found more graffitti by my favourite graffitti artist here in prague (no clue who it is, but their style's immediately recognisable). got to speak to diiimmi a few times over.

s'been a good week.

Friday, December 19, 2003

geez louise...
i had a really long story written about my lovely morning. magically it disappeared between pressing post and it actually being saved.


Monday, December 15, 2003

Sunday, December 14, 2003

apparently in Greece, according to Crazy George the greek, the more ticklish you are, the more jealous a person you are.

dunno how true that is. but intriguing.

tonight Crazy locked me in handcuffs for a good hour if not more after i kept making fun of him. i nearly got out earlier but i couldn't resist one jab at him as he leaned forward to unlock them.

"well. then you can sit there in handcuffs and not be able to do anything. except send text messages. and drink cola."

the sinister way that he said it really perfected the comment.

i'd have gotten annoyed except for the fact that it took him a good 20 minutes to get those things locked on me in the first place, and in the end it was only because i was laughing at him so much that i just couldn't be bothered to fight him off anymore.

they're good, proper police handcuffs though. no crappy play toy.

i want some of my own.
this morning i had a dream that, at one point, involved being chased by a giant grey goose. it was all fun and games and i started laughing in my dream, getting to the point of extreme laughter when you start to gasp for breath a little.

and then i gradually woke up, but realised that the way my body felt, i'd actually been breathing oddly in real life as well. don't know if i was laughing in my sleep or just being smothered to death by a visiting ghost.

but still. strange.

and does anyone know what geese mean? one site says "They might bring an extensive journey surrounded by good fortune." ooh. cool. he was a gigantic one, too, full of life.

Saturday, December 13, 2003

the thing with blogs is that PARENTS SHOULD NOT BE READING THEM.

unfortunately i doubt that message will be on top the next time you stop by. so i might have to post it again...
nectar of the gods, slovak style.

looks like cola but tastes nothing like it. not even very sweet. one of the few sodas i've ever come across that tastes just as good, if not better, when it's flat.

and it just has such a pleasant ring to the name. "kofola."

apparently in slovakia, don't know if they still do it now, but they would have kofola on tap in the pubs. so when boys went out with their dads for drinks, the dad would have a nice foaming beer, and the son would have a wonderfully foamy frothy kofola. and then be wired for the rest of the day.

lovely kofola....

Friday, December 12, 2003

on second thought, i just looked at my bank accounts and credit cards. my god, i'm a frivolous moron.

perhaps the lomo will have to wait for another time. lens does have to be fixed, though. there's no choice in that matter.

so after the lovely day on wednesday, thursday ended up... not terrible, but it made up for my good day.

i did work, i made meself feel better visiting friends at the bar they work at, i saw traband with my french friend and we were the only two non-czechs in the entire place, though i'll have to write about the concert itself later, because it does need a mention, i stopped by other friends' for what should have been a minute and ended up being a whole night of chatting, despite my need of sleep and need to be up early today to deal with cameras and websites, but still woke up by 7:30 anyways (so yes, i am tired)...

the bad part came only because i managed to let my camera roll off the bed, jamming the lens and making it completely useless. and to fix it's going to cost about half of what it cost me new, but still much cheaper than buying a new lens. and it was/is a really good lens, so i suppose it's better to spend the money here because i'm sure i'd pay a fortune more if i fix it in vancouver.

still. what a waste. just got my money from teaching yesterday, and instead of using it to pay back people i owe, i'll be using it to repair a split-second mistake.

stupid stupid stupid.

so, because repairing the lens won't cost me quite as much as i earned last month, i think i'll buy me a lomo. because i've meant to for awhile but just never got around to it. and if i'm spending that much money already, what's another $50? (besides - prague's the place to buy them, i won't find them too much cheaper elsewhere. other camera equipment can cost a fortune, but the eastern european models are quite decently priced. mostly.) and that'll be my prague souvenir. an old russian commie camera.

and a lens that hopefully will be repaired before i leave and actually work again. even better if it's in time to take portraits that i agreed to do for someone.

once again, sarah proves herself to be an absolute moron.

at least i'll be able to reclaim taxes (22%??) when i leave the country. and have a new toy....

Thursday, December 11, 2003

it's been a week of strange dreams. not sure if the full moon this week had anything to do with it, but it's the best reason i can figure out at the moment.

first there was one where i went back to the job in england and discovered that my boss had been fired, and then died because he was so mortified. the new owner was extremely nice, though, agreed that the old boss was a bastard, and then we went swimming in the pond/moat that he'd installed around the place.

and then there was the one where isabela and shants and i were at a party which was also an extremely empty fishing dock. and we all had fun. and then shants told me he was secretly in love with me and i had to try to explain to him that gee, that's swell, but i can't go out with you because i've been secretly going out with this other person that you know. and he was quite sad about it all but i'd never want to pit a friend against a friend...

yeah. there's been more but they're not vivid enough for description anymore. bizarre silly dreams. i'm curious why they both involved water or something relating to water. although shants did laugh at the one involving him when i told him. and then we did a silly i'm-bored-and-cold-but-mostly-just-bored dance at the tramstop until his tram came, trying to figure out the name of the pattern that was on the ceiling of my mom's ford fiesta from when i was a child. wasn't paisley, i'm thinking maybe it's called houndstooth? the one that looks like little creatures dancing (or so i think). (that was last night. not a dream.)

but i'll take those anytime over last night's sleep: waking up every half hour thinking that the alarm had just gone and lying there thinking with horror that i'd just dozed off and overslept and missed going to work on time. from just after 1am and onwards until 6am. when i probably fell asleep around 12:30am anyways.


i really did enjoy that dream about my ex-boss being fired, though....
in honour of a good day, two completely unrelated and non-complimenting photos. one taken by me, one by a child.

why didn't anyone ever mention that the "whither, canada" at the top has been a broken link for eons?

and more importantly, why did it take me so long to notice the bad image link?
other than waking up and feeling very headcold-ish sick and having to get out of bed to work early in the morning, today has probably been one of the best days i've had at least this week, if not longer.*

which makes me feel a vague bit of guilt, considering that i know some people who weren't having such great days today. but at the same time, hey! it's my turn now!

first, a class that went as well as ever but it was one-on-one with the student i like more because the other one was ill (who is also a sweet guy, but this one's just so adorable. there's just something about people who can't quite speak english yet...).
and then a lovely sunny day - apparently the last one for awhile.
and then sitting and actually doing some writing, not wasting time playing games due to writers' block.
and then finding some incredibly intellectual-sounding articles during research that just made me all the more excited to write.
and then getting an unfortunate sms from one person having a bad day, but managing to cheer them up with only a few words.
and then getting an invite to lunch from someone who i felt a little guilty for not having written much for lately.
and then getting there and realising that it didn't matter.
and having her compliment me on other things i'd done recently and tell me that she'd like me to more.
and finding out that we had our wires crossed anyways so though i haven't done some work for her, it's alright because i didn't know about that, but it takes stress about the work that i did know about and haven't finished yet.
and being told to just do one thing my way even if it wasn't with official permission, but if it's a problem she'll cover for me. (which just means she'll pretend she won't know me, of course. but i'd do the same for her. {g})
and finding out that our magazine has at least two financial supporters (advertisers) so far, which isn't much yet, but it's a start, and if they've started then it'll just multiply, don't you think?
and then, after the others left, realising that too often i assume people that i may not know so well (and often bosses or in work situations) are upset or angry or disappointed in or think less of me for some reason, when really, they're not, that people still like me, that any self-deprecating thoughts tend to be of my own doing (at least in those cases), and really, i've gotta get over being that self-centred to think that people bother caring about me enough to even get annoyed at me.
and then going to lend someone a program disk and being presented with another art-filled magazine to borrow just because i'd been interested in the ones she had the other day when i met her.
and then teaching classes that involved nothing more than conversation (yaaaay substitution!) and getting into lengthy conversations about bodies and dissections and WWII soldiers in formaldehyde.
and then getting another substitution job next week.
and then getting my pay for last month.
and then getting a phonecall from norway on the way home and hearing about people i haven't seen since summer.
and then checking email and finding out that i will definitely have a ride from north to south germany when i need it, for free! and even better, on the days i was hoping for!
and then finding out that i might be able to hook someone up with an au pair job i mentioned to them and that it could work out perfectly time-wise for both parties involved. the extra part of this story is that it'll mean i'll have gotten a czech friend out of the deal as well. yay!
and then finding out that kenten rocks my world.
and then getting an invite from someone who played a disturbing role in my dreams the other night to watch football with the gang. but disturbing role aside, i'm more than happy to get invited out with the guys.
and then got good news about knee surgery from my mom (i hope, at least, but sounds good).
and then realised that at that very moment, in my head, i was being much nicer and appreciative to my mom than i am sometimes, and have been told off for many a time. but that was purely me. i'm not an evil person!**
and then...

actually, that leads us to here. when i should be writing before i said i'd go meet the guys. whatever, i'll do the quick fix-ups now, go out, write the rest tomorrow morning, everything's cool.

good times....

and then
going to watch football and watching "our" team win, although the game was a little dull. but at least the place had four different games going on different screens, so when "our" game was boring you could watch the french. and hear cheers randomly even if no one scored on "your" screen.
and then got an sms from diiiiimi wishing he could catch a train to moooskvaaaaaaa.
and then had a ten minute but well worth it chat with shants at the tram stop, just being stupid and silly but both of us making up for not having anyone to chat with when we got back to our respective flats. the more i talk to shants, the more he intrigues me. and he makes a magnificent Jack Sparrow. lookswise, at least. and between the two of us we threw out more joking-but-still-meant compliments to give us egos for the rest of the week.
and now... i sleep.

* alright, maybe not so long, because days with someone to share your good-day-news with are always better, and at least i had that last week, but that said, that's all that it would have taken to make today perfect. so i'm not complaining, cuz you'll never get perfection, will you!
** no, i'm not UNappreciative of her. it's hard to explain and completely irrational. just smile and nod.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

meet the little mole. i've never seen the cartoon, but you can find stills from the show for sale all over the place in Prague. the drawings are just incredibly sweet and make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. don't you think?

which is why my advent calendar this year rocks. because it's a merry christmas picture of the little mole and all his friends playing in the snow.

rock on, old european animation!
alright. this is silly and pointless and somewhat self-aggrandizing of me, however. i am poor, and i owe a lot of money in the grand scheme of things (evil evil student loan!), even if i don't really realise it at the moment.

i also have a camera which i use all the time, but the built-in flash has decided to break. the amount that it'll cost to fix it is roughly the amount it could cost me to buy a new camera or a new flash. silly, but true. although i've been meaning to buy a proper flash anyways, now i actually have to buy one. at the moment, the cheaper of the ones i'm looking at is still over 6000Kc, which is roughly $300Cdn, so...$200US? you figure it out.

now, because everyone and their dog has done it, and i am obviously a lemming (but a lemming with a cool necklace, at least today!), i'm giving in and putting up a paypal button here, on the left side. and it's true i doubt i'll get anything, partially because anyone who reads this is likely as poor as i am, partially because, well, why give me money?

but! but! here's the kicker.

see, i figure, because this money's supposed to go towards camera equipment, which i sorely need at the moment, if you donate money towards it, it's only fair to offer you something in return, right? so, i offer anyone who shares money with me a print of one of my photos*, mailed to you, just for you. is that fair? i think it is.. within reason of course (ie: i'll mail you a print if it's not gonna cost me more than i have).

hey, it's the christmas season, cheap gifts are the way to go, right?

enough grovelling and rationalising. i know, i feel sorta ill at meself as well now...

* the link's just some of them, was made a couple months ago in a moment's notice because i needed a semi-gallery asap. actually meaning to fix that page up, whenever i get around to it, add more, etc...

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

i'd disconnected and was ready to go to bed, but read this and it reminded me:

a week and a half ago or so, stefan and i were making our way across the charles bridge at night, maybe 9 or 10pm or so, not that late. and as we were walking across, seeing as we'd just watched the beginning of Mission: Impossible the night before to see the snippets it shows of prague (because i hadn't seen the movie since i'd gotten to know prague), we were busy looking for places used during the filming. and remember that part at the beginning when tom cruise and that woman pretend to be lovers, then he goes off because he thinks someone's died, and when he comes back his "lover" had gone to the gate and been stabbed? we were trying to figure out if the gate they used was the same one as the one you can somewhat see when you walk across the bridge towards the castle.

(like we care, you say, enough description already, sarah! alright...)


as we were looking, the pathway near the river was rather empty. except for a couple on the bench. and at first we didn't notice a thing, but when i was having another look at the fence, i noticed...movement...and her straddling him and...they were most definitely, definitely having sex, thinking they were inconspicuous, sitting on the only bench under a lamppost when no one and nothing else was nearby and in perfect view of the actual bridge, making some of the least subtle movements imaginable. and i just laughed and pointed it out to stefan. who was just as shocked and amused. and i think they heard. i'm certain they looked at us before they stopped.

i'm dreadful sorry if we interrupted anything....

SO INCREDIBLY COLD OUTSIDE!!! three days ago it wasn't bad to be outside in only a sweater, suddenly i'm shivering underneath five layers of clothes the second i step outside. shocking.

if anyone reading this knows prague (maggie? ultrabrent?) and has any suggestions of places in the city that would make a good background for a girl who looks a little like liza minelli, let me know asap! phone number's on the left side there. need to come up with ideas quickly, but not certain where to go, nor is she.

kinda nifty being known as "the photographer friend" though.
meals with med students always seem to result in some potentially-off-putting conversation being held while everyone's halfway through their food. today it was upcoming human autopsies doused in formaldehyde, toxins and lymphs and stomach anatomy and apendices and general evilness in the body. and anaphaleptic {sp} shock.

you really do start to become immune to it though.

i think i need more sane, normal friends, though. lord knows how i'm gonna turn out after being with these guys for so long....

Sunday, December 07, 2003

it's so frustrating that i can't make msn messenger work through trillian. i really don't like that program, unfortunately it's the only way to get ahold of some people. but if anyone can tell me why msn through trillian hasn't worked for the past month, please let me know, i'll be forever grateful and may even reward you somehow. because i hate having the msn client open - defeats the purpose of trillian, doesn't it?
today i met people from khazakstan {sp}. hopefully i'll keep in touch with at least one of them.

but khazakstan! there's some places from which you really don't ever expect to meet people.

but my god, how i've changed since i first came out here. went to the medics party and actually felt bad and sad that i was leaving by 2am because i have to get up early tomorrow. and the number of people who stopped to say hi. and the amount of mingling i did. and the sort of advice i was giving vlasta. and the fact that i was dancing (for someone who's leaving tomorrow, elsewise i wouldn't have, but she wanted me to, so how could i say no?). and the sorts of songs i recognised and actually even liked a little (or, at least, not entirely hated). and how little the smokiness of the place bothered me. and the fact that by the end of the evening, i actually had makeup on (granted, i put some of it on meself before leaving, but it's the first time ever, people just offered me add-ons throughout the night).

it's nifty.

khazakstanis. whoo. {g}
guess what!!!

it's snowing!!!

a very little amount, but it's still there!

in other news, i have been very lazy, and am still continuing to be so. and rather than finish the work i should be doing, i think i'm skipping out soon.


Saturday, December 06, 2003

currently winamp is playing tears for fears - mad world and gary jules - mad world on repeat. i think i like the latter one more, but there's something undeniably kitschy about 80s crap. but really, it's a good thing that some people can just hear that there's a good song underneath the hollow pipe sounds.

it's just a shame that the other gary jules music i can find isn't so good. today's just a soft piano whispy voice sort of day. it gives you the right shivers in the right way.

the wind whistling outside the window just adds to the atmosphere.

and somehow i'm not entirely in the mood for a Bollywood/Hollywood party tonight at a loud noisy club. want to see people but... hmm....
pointless day, spent watching chick flicks with jonny but holding conversations over every single one. i'm sure we missed out on a lot.

and then, i hate to admit to it, but we went to see SWAT in the theatre with a few others, but spent the entire film talking overtop it, making jokes, noting every homoerotic moment in the film (and therefore laughing at the most inopportune moments, but hey, we were having fun!), pointing out every single ill-thought-through "tactical" move made.

good times..

tomorrow i do everything that should have been done today. sometimes you just need a nothing day.
never noticed it much while stefan was here, but now that he's gone home for the holidays, this flat is terribly quiet and lonely.

maybe i'll move up to jonny's for a couple weeks. living with a burmese brit, a british punjabi closet intellectual and a crazy greek might be better. at least there'd be a tv room to hang out in.

Thursday, December 04, 2003


hamster in czech is "krecek", where the c has an accent on it that makes it a "ch" sound, and the r has an accent that makes a soft-g-plus-rolling-r sound. it's not quite "krycek" but it's enough to amuse me. and, should i ever see Krycek on the x-files again, i will laugh all the more.
today's musical love. i even actually bought cds of theirs today.


the one downfall of smaller non-big-country bands, really, it's near impossible to find them on filesharing programs. but that's probably for the better, isn't it.

other frivolous purchases today:
- a blue tie with firey orange/yellow stegosauruses (stegosauri?) on it
- smazeny syr (i did it for matt..)
- cappuccino (it was a business meeting! not really. but sorta..)
- neato boots on hold for purchase tomorrow (though they're being bought by someone who owes me money anyways, so does that really count?)

the few other things that made today worthwhile:
- silly conversations about munich in the english class this morning
- chatting with people i haven't seen in awhile and being told by one that i'm a scunt, a slut, and that i'm hated (it's meant in a loving sort of way...)
- finding out that people i was afraid might be annoyed with me for leaving so soon (ie: work-type-sorta-boss-type acquaintences) actually still like me

other than that today was rather uninteresting. except that i think that it might maybe possibly snow soon. hope hope hope. it's getting suddenly colder, you never know....

Wednesday, December 03, 2003